What Am I Now?

Earlier today, I received a call from a representative from ParkwayHealth, Singapore, and she informed me that they'll be offering me their sponsorship for my course on Diploma in Nursing!

I was so happy that I literally jumped xp

Well, it was a pretty tough one, especially for male applicants, because during the interview, they mentioned to me that they'll make really careful considerations on male applicants. However, I still got it! It proves that I'm not too bad =p

Now, I'm finally a nursing student!

I know, there's still a long way ahead, but I think this ought to be a good start.

Flowering Bamboo

It's flowering! I couldn't believe it, it's actually a type of bamboo, which you don't often see it with flower.

We've had this plant for a few years now, and I've NEVER seen its flower before. Now, look at it... It's flowering xp *excited*

Well, some people would call it a sign of bad luck; while some people would call it a sign of good luck... However, according to my mother, since we don't see it really often, not even once a year, so she would take it as a sign of good luck =p

After all, being optimistic is better than anything else, isn't it? xp

Unbelievable; Yet Happening

I can never believe what has just happened, but it's already happening...

I think it's something that'll change my life, truely... I think it will.

It was about 9.45pm or maybe later, I was still helping out Audrey with her Scrabble, then Andrew came over to pick me up from my house and we went to Leo's to sit down and to further our conversation about it. Well, we started off by sending text messages and he thought that it'd be better if we talk face to face.

It sure was a havoc at Leo's, he didn't go straight to the point; he couldn't even look directly into my eyes, it's so obvious what he's up to... Lol...

So he didn't accomplish his mission, and he wanted to send me home.

While we were on our way, I was thinking so hard on how should I encourage him to tell me what he intend to tell me... When we were about to reach my house, it all happened so spontaneously. He asked me, he finally did! He asked if we could be togather, at that moment, I can feel myself blushing xp but I don't think he realised because it was just too dark in the car. I thought for a while and I asked for his confirmation if that's what he really wants, and he assured me =)

"Why not?" was my reply to him.

Silence came in at that instance, we weren't even expecting it to happen also. So he continued driving and I asked him to stop by the roadside, and then a moment later... We were kissing, it was the most passionate kiss that I've ever got. It was great. Just great.

Then he sent me home.

Not Schooling Anymore

Tonight is going to be my first time working in Kumon. I'm sure we all know what Kumon is all about.

At the moment, they're only asking me to mark the students' papers, so I think it shouldn't be too much of stress =) Well, that's only one way of saying it. The other way of saying is, I'm still not up for coaching students yet xp

Anwayhow, I don't mind as long as I got my money for now. For now, I think this job is good for money. No stress; yet you get the money.

Why do I need the money?

Well, I want a new watch! Hmm... I know I've already got one, but it's dying... The strap is not working so well any longer and now I want a steel strap instead of a leather strap.

Now, I've got another good news. I went for an interview last Monday (29.10.2007) at Pantai Institute, Melaka for my Diploma in Nursing Course, and I'm already confirmed with a place in the institute... Yay! That's also a reason why I'm no longer studying STPM. So I'll have to work now for my future expenses and most importantly for now... My watch!

What I Want

Here I am again, posting in this blog after a month or maybe a little less than that...

Anyway, let's get back to business...

I remember saying, in my previous post, that I'll will try my best to love STPM no matter how hard it is. Come to think of it, trying is just not enough. I realised, throughout this almost-half-a-year of Form 6 life, 'try' is never a word to use for studying; I think that 'commitment' is currently the best word to use before I found any better word. Without commitment in Form 6, nothing is going to work. Frankly speaking, I don't find such commitment in me after studying in Form 6 for almost half a year now.

Besides commitment, I think a goal in life is rather important too. 'What do you want to achieve from what you're studying?' should be the question to ask. With a goal, humans tend to work towards it, but of course it must be a valid goal with what you really want in it. I used to have a goal, a valid one before starting Form 6, even before I started my secondary studies, but after studying Form 6, I no longer find that goal of mine valid to me anymore. I have to say, I like to take things for granted and think that it'll be easily achieved. This is also what happen until now only I realise is not as easy as I think. Many people advised me on this matter, asking me to think again whether is that what I wanted, and my ignorance told them all that it's really what I wanted.

So until a week ago, I found out it's not really what I wanted anymore, and without that goal, I don't know what I want either. So I went to the school's counsellor (Mdm. Wong) with a few friends, trying to find out more about what we really want. Then, Mdm. Wong gave us two tests to work on: a personality test, and a self-directed search test. After the test, she explained our results to us. The personality test truly reflected on me and my very own personality, it's really true. Then, the self-directed search test actually suggested a few occupations that may suit us at the end of our results, and when I was listening to Mdm. Wong listing out all the occupations that may suit me, I heard one that immediately caught my attention.

Nurse.

Of all the occupations from the list I got from her, this is the one that really made me realise what have I been neglecting. I actually thought of it before, but I've neglected it from my mind with certain reasons. At that moment, it shines again, telling me it's the right one for me. Well, it may sound weird enough to the conservative public for a guy to go for nursing, but I don't care and I think this is what I'm going to go for.

As soon as my parents reached home that day, I told them about my tests' results and told them about my plans to stop Form 6 and go for a Diploma in Nursing since I'm already sure of what I want. They didn't quite like the idea of it, but they said it's my future, and they leave it to me to decide on what I really want. The next moment, when my mom was flipping through the Classified section of the newspaper, she found an advertisement from Sunway Medical Centre enrolling students for a sponsorship programme on a three-year course for Diploma in Nursing. My SPM results sure met its requirements, but upon graduation, I'll have to work for the hospital for 5 years.

Anyway how, I've already sent in my application with my Curriculum Vitae and certificates to try my luck on it. At the mean time, I'll still search around other institutes for this course. Right now, I'm waiting for them to respond.

What I'm afraid to lose now is my beloved friends, classmates and schoolmates, which I don't think I'll have much time to meet up with them again in the future if I really leave the school.

The Long Lost Blog

If it isn't for my dear Auntie Teresa, I would've forgotten about this blog. Lol... Anyway, looking back at MY blog, I could still recall the events that I've written in this blog that's happened, especially the heart attack case.

Anyway, after this post, I don't really know when will I be posting again hehe... However, I'll try my very best to keep this blog updated by posting in it frequently.

Latest news and updates about me, still single xp Studying STPM now, so I'm pretty caught up with my studies. As such, I would appreciate all the fun I could get right now.

Well, STPM is really tough, no joke... No matter whatever it is, I think this is my only way out, so I'll stick really hard to it, I'll try to love it no matter how hard it is. All I desperately need now is appropriate supports and encouragements, that's all. Hehe... I have to admit that it would be pretty hard for me to go on without any support or encouragement, especially from my parents x.x

Though it's tough, but the relieving part is my bunch of classmates. Lol... They're really one of a kind... I'm already feeling so close to then although we've only met a few months ago, not even half a year ago. Also, a few schoolmates from other classes, we're just like a whole big bunch of family haha... Frankly, we've created a family tree within our class. Just to let you know, I've got a wife and a husband in the class haha... Yea, as funny and as weird as it sounds, but it's fun having them around. They really brighten my dull days in the school. I have to admit that I really love this class a lot!

Third Person? No way...

It's really been quite some time I didn't post anything here already... Anyway, ever since the last post, a lot of things happened to me and I just don't know where to start from.

Let's just start from the recent happenings, which has just happened like last night...

I really don't know what my feelings are currently, I'm just so confused and I just don't feel good after what happened last night. I'm sure if the both of you read this, you should be able to understand what I'm currently talking about. I really feel so unfair and sorry for Terry.

I think I'm regretting what I did last night, I've never thought of being the third person in a relationship; and I don't want to be one at all. Kenneth once told me in the cab on our way home, he said that he only treats me as a younger brother and I think things should just remain that way. I wouldn't want to spoil both of your relationship, I also don't want the both of you to split up and not have any chance again just because of me and what happened last night. I could still see the both of you are still so in love with each other, still so caring to each other...

This is the love-life that I've been dreaming of all these while. This is what I wish to have but I won't snatch it from anyone, because I want to find it all by myself and all I can do is to just be envious of the both of you. When we where in the cab hugging each other, I can feel the secureness, the warmth and at the least I could feel that I was being cared by someone. That, I would say was the best moment in my life and I will remember it for as long as it will last.

However, when I woke up this morning, I saw something else...... I saw the both of you hugging each other so lovingly as if nothing can come in between the both of you. When I woke up and saw this, I feel like going home immediately because at that sudden I felt so left out T_T but after awhile, I got to observed that there was love in between the both of you and I should not be giving any troubles. That makes it another reason for me to want to go home at that time.

I believe the saying, "Good things can never last for long," When the both of you woke up, things started to happen again because things will sometimes get out of control and that's what has happened at this morning.

Now, I'm having a really confused feeling and I don't know what to do or what to feel about this matter. All I know is, now I need someone beside me to accompany me to get over this kind of weird feeling.

At last, I'd like to bless the both of you with everlasting love!