Paranoia

A mental disorder characterised by delusions organised into a system, without hallucinations or other marked symptoms of mental illness. The same term is sometimes used more loosely for a state of mind in which the individual has a strong belief that he or she is persecuted by others.
(OXFORD Dictionary Of Nursing, 2004)

PARANOIA is the word he used on me! He says I've got paranoia T_T

Everything I've been doing, I placed him first. I would've thought about him, his feelings and everything. Every single word I sent to him through text messaging, I read through to see if there'll be any words that might hurt his feelings or anyhow annoy or irritate him.

Then you said I've got paranoia.

What have I missed? Won't you please just go straight to the point and tell me?

High Expectations

I just don't understand.

Why must everyone be having high expectations on me?!

Have I been such a GOOD boy all these while when I did ONE mistake and everyone started to be disappointed on me? I know it's my mistake but I wasn't expecting all of you to have such high expectations on me.

After all, what have I done to earn such an honourable status? You all keep telling me that I carry myself with high integrity and self principles... I partially agree with that, simply because I see myself as someone stubborn and always have my own ways of seeing things x.x

Have I once again been taken for granted?!

Stop expecting so much from me!

Supper With Superb Friends

I just reached home from supper =p

Yea, another chance to get fat XD

The superb friends happen to be Brian and Chen Chen! They're great friends =)

We had supper and catch up with each other's latest updates and gossips! Hehe... I had a great time there, I wish we could've more time.

Hope to see the both of you again soon.

P.s. I'm improving in blogging, I'm posting more frequent nowadays! Maybe because I'm bored and have nothing else better to do XD

WARNING: It's Opened!

I've finally decided to open up my blog to the public.

If you've read the contents and you don't like me as a friend anymore, so be it. This is the true me, is either you live with it or leave me immediately.

Please DON'T even think about trying to change me.

Thank you.

The Waiting

I miss you so much!

I just feel like expressing it out of a sudden, that's why the early post XD LOL...

I haven't seen him for about three months now. He says he needs more time on his own, and so I'm giving it to him.

Wait, is the only thing I can do.

Honestly, whenever a relationship gets such scenarios, it's rather bad. So I'm currently getting myself prepared for the worst to come. I'm really blurred and I really don't know what to expect and I also don't know what I'm waititng for.

To me, I'm waiting for his return. One of my friends told me, 'Maybe it's his way of saying goodbye silently...' However, I still prefer the optimistic =)