It's really been quite some time I didn't post anything here already... Anyway, ever since the last post, a lot of things happened to me and I just don't know where to start from.
Let's just start from the recent happenings, which has just happened like last night...
I really don't know what my feelings are currently, I'm just so confused and I just don't feel good after what happened last night. I'm sure if the both of you read this, you should be able to understand what I'm currently talking about. I really feel so unfair and sorry for Terry.
I think I'm regretting what I did last night, I've never thought of being the third person in a relationship; and I don't want to be one at all. Kenneth once told me in the cab on our way home, he said that he only treats me as a younger brother and I think things should just remain that way. I wouldn't want to spoil both of your relationship, I also don't want the both of you to split up and not have any chance again just because of me and what happened last night. I could still see the both of you are still so in love with each other, still so caring to each other...
This is the love-life that I've been dreaming of all these while. This is what I wish to have but I won't snatch it from anyone, because I want to find it all by myself and all I can do is to just be envious of the both of you. When we where in the cab hugging each other, I can feel the secureness, the warmth and at the least I could feel that I was being cared by someone. That, I would say was the best moment in my life and I will remember it for as long as it will last.
However, when I woke up this morning, I saw something else...... I saw the both of you hugging each other so lovingly as if nothing can come in between the both of you. When I woke up and saw this, I feel like going home immediately because at that sudden I felt so left out T_T but after awhile, I got to observed that there was love in between the both of you and I should not be giving any troubles. That makes it another reason for me to want to go home at that time.
I believe the saying, "Good things can never last for long," When the both of you woke up, things started to happen again because things will sometimes get out of control and that's what has happened at this morning.
Now, I'm having a really confused feeling and I don't know what to do or what to feel about this matter. All I know is, now I need someone beside me to accompany me to get over this kind of weird feeling.
At last, I'd like to bless the both of you with everlasting love!
Let's just start from the recent happenings, which has just happened like last night...
I really don't know what my feelings are currently, I'm just so confused and I just don't feel good after what happened last night. I'm sure if the both of you read this, you should be able to understand what I'm currently talking about. I really feel so unfair and sorry for Terry.
I think I'm regretting what I did last night, I've never thought of being the third person in a relationship; and I don't want to be one at all. Kenneth once told me in the cab on our way home, he said that he only treats me as a younger brother and I think things should just remain that way. I wouldn't want to spoil both of your relationship, I also don't want the both of you to split up and not have any chance again just because of me and what happened last night. I could still see the both of you are still so in love with each other, still so caring to each other...
This is the love-life that I've been dreaming of all these while. This is what I wish to have but I won't snatch it from anyone, because I want to find it all by myself and all I can do is to just be envious of the both of you. When we where in the cab hugging each other, I can feel the secureness, the warmth and at the least I could feel that I was being cared by someone. That, I would say was the best moment in my life and I will remember it for as long as it will last.
However, when I woke up this morning, I saw something else...... I saw the both of you hugging each other so lovingly as if nothing can come in between the both of you. When I woke up and saw this, I feel like going home immediately because at that sudden I felt so left out T_T but after awhile, I got to observed that there was love in between the both of you and I should not be giving any troubles. That makes it another reason for me to want to go home at that time.
I believe the saying, "Good things can never last for long," When the both of you woke up, things started to happen again because things will sometimes get out of control and that's what has happened at this morning.
Now, I'm having a really confused feeling and I don't know what to do or what to feel about this matter. All I know is, now I need someone beside me to accompany me to get over this kind of weird feeling.
At last, I'd like to bless the both of you with everlasting love!
