Her Warm Welcome

That's how she would stand to welcome me home whenever I come home from wherever I go, she'll never fail to sit upright and give me that look XD

I went clubbing last night and came home at about 4.30am. When my car was at the gate, there she was, standing there to welcome me even in the middle of her sleep ;) I love you, Stephie <3

When I look at the expression she has on her in this picture, she reminds me of Baby's blur face =X LOL... They look so similar! Like daddy like daughter @_@ no offense, Baby, but expressions remind me a lot about you =D

By the way, she's eight-month-old now, look how much she's grown ;)

A Piece Of Good News

Finally, a good news! XD Yea, I need one desperately right now, not that it helps very much @_@

Anyway, our OSCE results have been announced and I passed! Phew... Now I'm worried about my MEQ, I'm so dead x.x

It's pretty happy to have tutors coming in to give us commendations during OSCE feedback sessions =p

Cheers!

However, there are still a few of them who failed. I feel so sorry for them, some of them even cried in the class once they knew that they failed =(

Failing Attempts

No matter how I did my best, it's just not the best for him.

I'd given all I have, stupidly thinking that as long as I give all I have, I'll be able to work wonders with my sincerity but the current situation is always proving me wrong. I have to struggle all the time to get the things I want, why won't the things I want struggle to get me? Am I too easy to be approached? What if one day, I stop all my attempts, will the things and person I want come to me on their own?

I know, it's just all bullshit. I know for the fact that if I still want it, I must work very hard on my own to get it no matter how! This has been my principle all these while, no wonder I've been getting the things I want but I doubt that'll work in my current situation.

My friends have been urging me so much to let go of him but to be honest, I'm still holding on. Yes, you're right, Mondo. Never have I let go of it yet. I couldn't, I still want him deep inside me, I know that what I REALLY WANT. I don't want to forget him, I don't want to let go of him, I WANT TO HOLD ON.

Time limit? I seriously don't know. For as long as I still love him? Or maybe until someone turns up to pick up my dear fragile heart that broke into a thousand pieces by then? XD LOL... I myself don't know either.

Definitions Of Love

Baby, this is another post specially for you =)

I will list down the relevant definitions of love here from my Collins Cobuild Advanced Learner's English Dictionary, 2006 and I'd like to to look through and see if any of it describes your feelings for me. If any of it does, it means that you still love me and I would strongly suggest that you reconsider your decision. You may select more than one or none, if really none appears to be describing your feelings for me.

LOVE

1) Love is a very strong feeling of affection towards someone who you are romantically or sexually attracted to.

2) Love is the feeling that a person's happiness is very important to you, and the way you show this feeling in your behaviour towards them.

So does any of these describes your feelings for me? You may choose to answer me or not, it's always your choice =)

For me, BOTH truly describes my feeling towards you. Sincerely.

Although it's your choice to choose to answer me or not, but of course I do hope that you could give me a favourable answer XD Only hope, OK? I'm not forcing or insisting x.x

Who To Blame? CALVIN!!!

Yea, so used to taking all the blames. So just bring it on, Baby!

This goes wrong, Calvin's fault; that goes wrong, Calvin's fault! XD

How convenient =D

Never mind, blame me more, everyone else is doing it too, I'm SO USED TO IT =)

Hais... I'm not being sarcastic, OK? If putting all blames on me makes you feel better, please do it... I'm seriously used to it, as it's happening to my everyday life. I guess people just take me for granted all the time o_O

~Te amo, Baby~

About Baby Again XD

I have been very happy and I guess happy times don't really last? LOL...

On a Friday, 30 October 2009, that stupid Anderson just told Baby that he's not going to pick up Baby to his place anymore just because Baby's mobile was spoilt accidentally during that party and he didn't trust him. Then he called me, and in the end I went to pick him up instead. That night, he can't go home, so I booked a room at USJ9 for him. Due to Anderson's mistrust, we got back together on that very same day too =D

I was so glad and happy, we spent the next two days in that room together spending precious time =) I was really very happy! He asked, why am I always so approachable whenever he needs me? Well, that's the least I can do to protect him as my love for him was still so strong. How can that bastard Anderson treat him like that?! He's such a bugger =.=

We were good for the next four weeks, then again, shit happens x.x

I already don't feel like writing any further about shits as it depresses me. We got into another argument and this time, we're separating for real. I've decided to let him go for real this time not because I no longer love him but I have sacrificed all I have to bring him back previously and I have none left to sacrifice any further to bring him back this time as much as I want him back so badly.

I wish I could just cast a spell right now and he'll just return to me.

I can't even write now! I had a draft in my mind before I started writing but the draft just gone missing suddenly, I don't know what to write next! Shit!

Many faults happened among the two of us, which some were originated from me and some from him. I just don't understand, why I could tolerate all your faults just because I love you and want to keep us together and why can't you? If you'd really like to compare, your faults are not any minor than the faults I have. Hais... Anyway, I don't mean to blame you. I just don't understand why is it so hard for you to tolerate to keep us both together as you know very surely that we both love each other so much!

I don't know, I'm just so lost @_@ All I can do now is wait and see. I know I'm still hoping for you to come back to me, which I'm not supposed to but hard to resist that thought and hope.

There's an empty space in my heart for you all the time, it's there all the time because you branded your name on it and not easily taken up by just any others. I know I'm not suppose to say this but I don't care XD: Come back to me anytime you wish, I'll still accept you as long as I still love you, which I still very much right now x_X *My friends are so going to whack me nicely after they read this.

All the above was like a spontaneous crap, it wasn't like this in my mental draft x.x I might just come out with another post later when I could remember my draft XD

~Te amo, Baby!~