Titanic, Great Production

Daycare Ward was so empty today after 1pm...

That's also the time when Titanic was showing on Star Movies, so most of us was actually watching x.x I know, not professional at all XD LOL...

Even Staff Nurse Dennis was sitting on the couch watching! LOL...

When it comes to the part when Jack was locked up in a room and Rose found him... Jack asked her to go out and get help, Jack put all his faith and trust in her that she'll return in time to save him. That scene seems so 'familiar'.

My meaning of familiar is slightly different here. Familiar means his faith and trust for her reminds me of the faith and trust I used to put on Adrian, and I was thinking again x.x

I know it's so stupid but I just couldn't help it, I believed in him so hard and I put so much hope on him that he'll return right after his examinations but I'm sorry to say that he'd disappointed me.

No matter how much bad memories the movie could trigger me, I still LOVE the movie very much!

Titanic, the best ever production of its time! Bravo!

I Changed My Own Posting Roster XD

I'm suppose to do my posting at CDU (Central Diagnostic Unit), where they have all the endoscopies, colonoscopies, EEGs, stress tests and other diagnostic tests done there. I was there the first day and it's very boring x.x Although there are many things to see but it's enough for me after seeing it once XD

So on Tuesday onwards, I went to the Day Care Ward just beside it to help out. I find it more interesting there as I get to practise there as well... Besides that, I met a 'cool' Staff Nurse there too! LOL... She'd kill me if she ever read this xp

Anyway, her name's Casandra and she's got this attitude and personality of her own... I wouldn't say it's a negative attitude and personality, but I'll neither say it's positive too XD She's the type where she could be playful at the right time and be very responsible on he duty.

I'm also very happy and delighted that I'm able to stick a 20G cannula in a female patient's vein now =p Well, it might not seem to be an achievement to many of the medical personnel, but it is an accomplishment to me because it wasn't easy for me and I did it. I have much more confident now in doing cannulation! Woohoo...

I Have A Thought

Calcutta.

That's the place I'll first visit after I've achieved my Master of Science in Nursing.

I've decided and my mind is set to do so.

There's just this strong and sudden urge that's pushing me to do so. They really need lots of manpower there to care for the poor and the dying, and I'm sure I'll do a very good nursing job there =)

Besides, I think it'll provide me a life time experience. An experience to witness the worst conditions of poverty.

Calcutta, here I come!

Updates (A really brief one xp)

Everyone in the world knows that it's Valentine's Day today, but not everyone wants it...

A few of my friends including me wouldn't want it... I guess, it's because we're still single x.x LOL...

Anyway, my life's been a busy one lately at the ward. Can you imagine, 36 patients (full house) with only two Staff Nurses, an Assistant Nurse and three Student Nurses! Ratio of nurses to patients? 1:6!!! That's madness...

We don't even have enough time to finish up our observations on all the patients on time... What's more when we still have to chart their observations when it's done? In conclusion, we were working like cows XD

That's what's been happening...

For today, I'll be going to Genting! Woohoo... Haven't been there for a very long time, I've actually planned this trip long ago on this very same day too. However, the person I've planned to go with and the people I'm going with today is different... No matter how, I'm still glad that I'm going with my friends! =p We'll have lots of fun =)

My Career Goals

I've decided.

I'll just concentrate on my career and not think of anything else, I'll just let every other thing to come naturally as it is suppose to be.

My Career Goals
01) Finish my Diploma in Nursing.
02) Work at Singapore for a year.
03) Pay off my remaining bond with Singapore.
04) Get my register with NMC.
05) Work at UK until I've got enough money to do my post basic in emergency nursing.
06) Do my post basic in emergency nursing.
07) Continue working at UK until I've got enough money to do midwifery.
08) Do my midwifery certification.
09) Continue working at UK until I've got enough money to do my Bachelor of Science in Nursing.
10) Do my Bachelor of Science in Nursing.
11) Continue working at UK for another year.
12) Travel around the World while doing per diem nursing.
13) Continue working at UK until I've got enough money to do my Master of Science in Nursing.
14) Do my Master of Science in Nursing.
15) Volunteer myself to rural countries like South Africa, India, etc from time to time while working at UK until I've got enough money to do my Doctor of Nursing Practice.
16) Do my Doctor of Nursing Practice.
17) Continue working at UK or other countries until I retire.
18) Retire.

How's it like? Too far away? LOL...

When there's a dream, there're always ways to achieve them.

Say 'NO!' To Anyone New

I'm just not ready, that's all I can say. I also don't know when will I be ready, it's just getting harder and more painful by the days.

It's not that I'm not trying, but I just can't seem to get use to the feeling. I still feel so lost, most of the time. I miss the words I like to hear from him, that no longer exist. My whole person just seems wrong, so wrong till I don't know how to describe it any further.

Honestly, I still cry most of the nights before I sleep.

I'm actually really happy with whoever I have with me now, and I'm too tired to start anything new. So, I don't think finding-someone-new would come to my mind anytime soon.

I'm really thankful for the people who still love me now (you know who you are =)). I'll appreciate my every moment with these people.
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I went to Popular, Sunway Pyramid just now and I saw him at one of the sections. I went over and said 'Hi,' to him, he replied with a dull 'Hi,' and just walked away.

Was he trying to avoid me? Why would he do so?

I really don't know the answers to these questions.

I'm just disappointed at the way he treats me now, can't we be friends again even after separation? Why not?!

Torturous Night

I was on night shift last night, and I never knew it could be this torturous to wait for 0700 to come x.x

I was looking at the clock ticking, seconds by seconds; minutes by minutes; hours by hours...

TORTUROUS.

When I reached home around 0800, my eyelids were so heavy, I could barely open them for another second! Gosh...

It's not like the ward's busy, but the waiting is tiring, PLUS, it's midnight... I'm still not in the nocturnal mode yet XD
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I know I haven't post anything about my Chinese New Year (CNY), but there's nothing much or interesting about it. I'm just not in the mood for it this year and I don't know why...

I just went back to Ipoh on the second day of CNY.
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Yea, I still miss him very much. Sometimes I miss him so badly that I'll start to cry again x.x

Brian told me before that the phrase 'time heals everything' is not true, he claims that time is the thing that will only make you GET USED to the stinky feeling, not heal. Surprisingly, I totally agree with him! Unfortunately, I'm still not used to the feeling yet...