Here I am again, posting in this blog after a month or maybe a little less than that...
Anyway, let's get back to business...
I remember saying, in my previous post, that I'll will try my best to love STPM no matter how hard it is. Come to think of it, trying is just not enough. I realised, throughout this almost-half-a-year of Form 6 life, 'try' is never a word to use for studying; I think that 'commitment' is currently the best word to use before I found any better word. Without commitment in Form 6, nothing is going to work. Frankly speaking, I don't find such commitment in me after studying in Form 6 for almost half a year now.
Besides commitment, I think a goal in life is rather important too. 'What do you want to achieve from what you're studying?' should be the question to ask. With a goal, humans tend to work towards it, but of course it must be a valid goal with what you really want in it. I used to have a goal, a valid one before starting Form 6, even before I started my secondary studies, but after studying Form 6, I no longer find that goal of mine valid to me anymore. I have to say, I like to take things for granted and think that it'll be easily achieved. This is also what happen until now only I realise is not as easy as I think. Many people advised me on this matter, asking me to think again whether is that what I wanted, and my ignorance told them all that it's really what I wanted.
So until a week ago, I found out it's not really what I wanted anymore, and without that goal, I don't know what I want either. So I went to the school's counsellor (Mdm. Wong) with a few friends, trying to find out more about what we really want. Then, Mdm. Wong gave us two tests to work on: a personality test, and a self-directed search test. After the test, she explained our results to us. The personality test truly reflected on me and my very own personality, it's really true. Then, the self-directed search test actually suggested a few occupations that may suit us at the end of our results, and when I was listening to Mdm. Wong listing out all the occupations that may suit me, I heard one that immediately caught my attention.
Nurse.
Of all the occupations from the list I got from her, this is the one that really made me realise what have I been neglecting. I actually thought of it before, but I've neglected it from my mind with certain reasons. At that moment, it shines again, telling me it's the right one for me. Well, it may sound weird enough to the conservative public for a guy to go for nursing, but I don't care and I think this is what I'm going to go for.
As soon as my parents reached home that day, I told them about my tests' results and told them about my plans to stop Form 6 and go for a Diploma in Nursing since I'm already sure of what I want. They didn't quite like the idea of it, but they said it's my future, and they leave it to me to decide on what I really want. The next moment, when my mom was flipping through the Classified section of the newspaper, she found an advertisement from Sunway Medical Centre enrolling students for a sponsorship programme on a three-year course for Diploma in Nursing. My SPM results sure met its requirements, but upon graduation, I'll have to work for the hospital for 5 years.
Anyway how, I've already sent in my application with my Curriculum Vitae and certificates to try my luck on it. At the mean time, I'll still search around other institutes for this course. Right now, I'm waiting for them to respond.
What I'm afraid to lose now is my beloved friends, classmates and schoolmates, which I don't think I'll have much time to meet up with them again in the future if I really leave the school.
Anyway, let's get back to business...
I remember saying, in my previous post, that I'll will try my best to love STPM no matter how hard it is. Come to think of it, trying is just not enough. I realised, throughout this almost-half-a-year of Form 6 life, 'try' is never a word to use for studying; I think that 'commitment' is currently the best word to use before I found any better word. Without commitment in Form 6, nothing is going to work. Frankly speaking, I don't find such commitment in me after studying in Form 6 for almost half a year now.
Besides commitment, I think a goal in life is rather important too. 'What do you want to achieve from what you're studying?' should be the question to ask. With a goal, humans tend to work towards it, but of course it must be a valid goal with what you really want in it. I used to have a goal, a valid one before starting Form 6, even before I started my secondary studies, but after studying Form 6, I no longer find that goal of mine valid to me anymore. I have to say, I like to take things for granted and think that it'll be easily achieved. This is also what happen until now only I realise is not as easy as I think. Many people advised me on this matter, asking me to think again whether is that what I wanted, and my ignorance told them all that it's really what I wanted.
So until a week ago, I found out it's not really what I wanted anymore, and without that goal, I don't know what I want either. So I went to the school's counsellor (Mdm. Wong) with a few friends, trying to find out more about what we really want. Then, Mdm. Wong gave us two tests to work on: a personality test, and a self-directed search test. After the test, she explained our results to us. The personality test truly reflected on me and my very own personality, it's really true. Then, the self-directed search test actually suggested a few occupations that may suit us at the end of our results, and when I was listening to Mdm. Wong listing out all the occupations that may suit me, I heard one that immediately caught my attention.
Nurse.
Of all the occupations from the list I got from her, this is the one that really made me realise what have I been neglecting. I actually thought of it before, but I've neglected it from my mind with certain reasons. At that moment, it shines again, telling me it's the right one for me. Well, it may sound weird enough to the conservative public for a guy to go for nursing, but I don't care and I think this is what I'm going to go for.
As soon as my parents reached home that day, I told them about my tests' results and told them about my plans to stop Form 6 and go for a Diploma in Nursing since I'm already sure of what I want. They didn't quite like the idea of it, but they said it's my future, and they leave it to me to decide on what I really want. The next moment, when my mom was flipping through the Classified section of the newspaper, she found an advertisement from Sunway Medical Centre enrolling students for a sponsorship programme on a three-year course for Diploma in Nursing. My SPM results sure met its requirements, but upon graduation, I'll have to work for the hospital for 5 years.
Anyway how, I've already sent in my application with my Curriculum Vitae and certificates to try my luck on it. At the mean time, I'll still search around other institutes for this course. Right now, I'm waiting for them to respond.
What I'm afraid to lose now is my beloved friends, classmates and schoolmates, which I don't think I'll have much time to meet up with them again in the future if I really leave the school.
