The Last Birthday Gift

I got my left ear PIERCED!

Hehe... Yea, that's my LAST birthday gift for this year from...... MYSELF =p

I really can't believed that I've finally had it pierced!

However, this is a SECRET from my parents x.x LOL... NEVER LET THEM KNOW, or else they'd kill me @_@

I really didn't know that Ignatius wanted his ear pierced too, if I knew earlier, I would've waited for him... Really...

I'm sorry, Ignatius...

Productive Shopping!

I really couldn't remember when was the last time I went shopping and came home with a satisfying feeling.

Just now, I went to MidValley with Ignatius and Kelvin for shopping =p

It was really a PRODUCTIVE shopping.

I bought two shirts, with the help of my newly hired Fashion Consultant, Mr Ignatius Soon a.k.a. Domestic Pig XD Hehe... He chose a few shirts for me, asked me to try them on and made me did the final selection.

Before they reached MidValley, I went into Speedy and I've also bought a DVD that I'd longed for, The Others! Yeah... I've watched it once but I miss it so much that I could no longer resist myself when its price was only RM19.90 for an original DVD! Woohoo...

Rejoice =)

Spontaneous

I've just did a spontaneous act last two nights...

I didn't sleep home the last two nights without any planning at all! Woohoo...

It all happened so spontaneously, I just didn't go home for the last two nights. I was at Kelvin's house with Ignatius and unexpectedly became their 'guinea pig' xp LOL...

This was so unplanned that made me felt so uncomfortable and uneasy, because I rarely do things without planning x.x

By the way, I'd like to express my utmost gratitude towards the both of them for their hospitality as I've had a wonderful time with them =) I'd also like to apologise for intruding their personal time together.

It was really like a vacation, I vacated myself! =p

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas!

I just took my shower after coming home from my auntie's house, we had our Christmas countdown and celebrations there =p It was fun.

However, I don't know what caused it but I don't have the spirit for Christmas this year. It just seems different this year and I don't know why, maybe it's due to the break up that I faced recently? I'm pretty moody throughout the whole day, I feel like it's just not myself so much!

Birthday Wishes

Question for today: Are birthday wishes that important?

Whenever the birthday of a friend I'm close to is here, I'll definitely send them birthday wishes. Then my mother asked me, have they remembered your birthday before?

That made me think a little while.

Seriously, many times... Friends who I've sent birthday wishes to or better still, presents, never even take the effort to wish me on my birthday. I guess that shows sincerity in a friendship, is it?

Well, it's not that I mind but my mother just reminded me that it's one of the smallest effort a friend couldn't miss. She always commented that, what's the point of keeping friends who don't appreciate me at all? This is a pretty true statement. She's always been nagging me because I'm always helping worthless friends, friends who don't even appreciate me in return, friends who won't be here for me whenever I need them...

I don't know why these thoughts just came out so suddenly, maybe because my birthday is coming and I'm just anxious to know who actually treats me as a sincere friend and who appreciates me.

Anyhow, I've never find any friends worthless. All my friends are worthy to me regardless of the wishes and all. They're all worthy because different friends offer different lessons in life for me, which will somehow rather help me in the near or far future =)

Thank you, FRIENDS!

P.s. Christmas is just around the corner, merry Christmas!

Getting Expressive

Check out my Blog Archive!

It shows a drastic improvement in year 2008, especially in the month of December =p Hehe...

I'm GETTING EXPRESSIVE.

Productive Posting

For this whole week (15 - 19 December 2008), I was posted to a government clinic at Seri Kembangan.

Why is it called 'Productive Posting'?
1) I had lots of fun with the babies while taking the babies' weight, length, head circumference and chest circumference.
2) I managed to do an ante-natal assessment on a Thai mother, which includes palpating the foetus' presentation! =p
3) I drew blood successfully for three (3) consecutive times! Hehe...
4) I gave intramuscular injections for two (2) patients, one's at dorsogluteal (buttocks) and another is at deltoid (upper arm).

Aren't these productive =p Hehe...

At least I'm satisfied with my posting this time =)

Out Of Reach

Here's a song that really describes my feelings now.

"Out Of Reach" by Gabrielle

Knew the signs

Wasn't right

I was stupid for a while

Swept away by you

And now I feel like a fool

So confused,

My heart's bruised

Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far

I never had your heart

Out of reach,

Couldn't see

We were never

Meant to be

Catch myself

From despair

I could drown

If I stay here

Keeping busy everyday

I know I will be OK

But I was

So confused,

My heart's bruised

Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far

I never had your heart

Out of reach,

Couldn't see

We were never

Meant to be

So much hurt,

So much pain

Takes a while

To regain

What is lost inside

And I hope that in time,

You'll be out of my mind

And I'll be over you

But now I'm

So confused,

My heart's bruised

Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach,

So far

I never had your heart

Out of reach,

Couldn't see

We were never

Meant to be

Out of reach,

So far

You never gave your heart

In my reach, I can see

There's a life out there

For me

END

A four (4) months and 21 days' relationship has just been ended.

I'm glad that the matter has been resolved. Although it's not the ending I wish, but it's the ending that I've expected.

He says he could no longer commit because of his future and university life that's coming up.

He feels happy about it, that's all it matters to me =)

He also said that we might even get back together if we haven't find anyone on the way, that's my only hope for now.

Please promise me that you'll take very good care of yourself, OK?

I love you, I really do...

Cheer Jam '08, Relationship, Etc..

I haven't been posting anything for a few days now, it's because I was really busy x.x

All thanks to Cheer Jam '08, thank goodness it's finally over. There was even once when I only got about four hours of sleep within 48 hours! =.= That's how busy I was... Nevertheless, Cheer Jam was great but the response for my first aid session during the coaches conference was very pathetic and depressing... Who cares, I'll just take it as a lesson learnt and make it better the next time =)

Adrian and I are still sorting things out... I can very well assure everyone that my love for him is still very strong, but I doubt his love for me is as strong. I've been ignored for about two days now. I've been telling all my friends that I'm ready for a break up if he asks so, but when I'm alone, I doubt so.

I'm scared, afraid and sad... Depressed at the same time as well...

Have you already got someone else? If you do, please let me know. I don't mind, I'll let go of you and you'll also have my blessings for the both of you at the same time as long as you're happy.

I sound stupid, don't I? But I think that's the only thing I could do.

Anyway...

When I was at the ice rink just now waiting for my lesson to start, I was skating around to warm myself up and then I stared at a guy who was also at the same time staring at me. we approached each other and he asked if we've met before because he finds me very familiar, I too at the same time find him VERY familiar.

There was this very strange feeling because the both of us stared at each other at the same time and find each other familiar at the same time!

We tried to figure it out but we couldn't recall a thing XD LOL...

So now, it's disturbing me x.x

Paranoia

A mental disorder characterised by delusions organised into a system, without hallucinations or other marked symptoms of mental illness. The same term is sometimes used more loosely for a state of mind in which the individual has a strong belief that he or she is persecuted by others.
(OXFORD Dictionary Of Nursing, 2004)

PARANOIA is the word he used on me! He says I've got paranoia T_T

Everything I've been doing, I placed him first. I would've thought about him, his feelings and everything. Every single word I sent to him through text messaging, I read through to see if there'll be any words that might hurt his feelings or anyhow annoy or irritate him.

Then you said I've got paranoia.

What have I missed? Won't you please just go straight to the point and tell me?

High Expectations

I just don't understand.

Why must everyone be having high expectations on me?!

Have I been such a GOOD boy all these while when I did ONE mistake and everyone started to be disappointed on me? I know it's my mistake but I wasn't expecting all of you to have such high expectations on me.

After all, what have I done to earn such an honourable status? You all keep telling me that I carry myself with high integrity and self principles... I partially agree with that, simply because I see myself as someone stubborn and always have my own ways of seeing things x.x

Have I once again been taken for granted?!

Stop expecting so much from me!

Supper With Superb Friends

I just reached home from supper =p

Yea, another chance to get fat XD

The superb friends happen to be Brian and Chen Chen! They're great friends =)

We had supper and catch up with each other's latest updates and gossips! Hehe... I had a great time there, I wish we could've more time.

Hope to see the both of you again soon.

P.s. I'm improving in blogging, I'm posting more frequent nowadays! Maybe because I'm bored and have nothing else better to do XD

WARNING: It's Opened!

I've finally decided to open up my blog to the public.

If you've read the contents and you don't like me as a friend anymore, so be it. This is the true me, is either you live with it or leave me immediately.

Please DON'T even think about trying to change me.

Thank you.

The Waiting

I miss you so much!

I just feel like expressing it out of a sudden, that's why the early post XD LOL...

I haven't seen him for about three months now. He says he needs more time on his own, and so I'm giving it to him.

Wait, is the only thing I can do.

Honestly, whenever a relationship gets such scenarios, it's rather bad. So I'm currently getting myself prepared for the worst to come. I'm really blurred and I really don't know what to expect and I also don't know what I'm waititng for.

To me, I'm waiting for his return. One of my friends told me, 'Maybe it's his way of saying goodbye silently...' However, I still prefer the optimistic =)

Taken For Granted?

I have been wondering, what sort of a friend or perhaps a lover am I? Thinking back whatever that I'd done, I have to admit that I'm a pretty promising person and has the habit of thinking for others first (which I don't totally agree to this x.x) =p

That's what most of my friends commented as well. One of my close frineds from college even said that people had been taking me for granted due to my promising attitude, I hadn't been rejecting a lot of favours, that's why people keep on coming to me for help, even small matters that they could've handle on their own...

After that comment, I gave myself another thought as a third party... I realised that my patience and tolerance has also been taken for granted! They just think that I'm this strong and tough figure, who can sustain any damage done to him. So once or twice wouldn't hurt him much, BUT once or twice from many people becomes MANY times! Hence, I feel like I'm taken advantage of but my BLOODY patience and tolarance have been keeping my stupidity going on.

In conclusion, I have been labelled as SELFLESS! I think it's suppose to be a good label but when it's too much, I personally thinks that it eventually becomes stupidity because you don't care for yourself x.x If you don't care for yourself first, how do you care for others?

Here's the catch, my new year's RESOLUTION is to be more SELF CARED

Thank You, Goddess!

I know it's pretty late in the middle of the night now, but I just want to finish this post before I sleep...

I've got many friends throughout the years, but not many that could last the challenge presented by time... CHENG CHOO is one of them that lasts through time and I'm really proud to have her as my closest friend.

Whenever I'm presented with challenging situations, I just like seeking for her advice. She has the ability of a Goddess to make me understand life and see it from a different angle. That angle is an angle that I've probably forgotten how to turn to but she has been reminding me patiently over and over again...

She also has this very strong personality. She believes strongly in her own principles of life and I certainly admire that very much =)

Thank you, Goddess! =p

I LOVE YOU, CHENG CHOO...

STPM-phobic (What a word! LOL...)

STPM is coming to an end by this coming Wednesday for him and I can sense that there is fear in me...

I'm really afraid.

I really hope that my worries and instincts are wrong. It's been bothering me for quite some time now and he insisted many times that there's nothing worng, he just needed to focus on his examinations...

All I can do now is to keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best and most important of all is to be optimistic all the time =)

Wow... Absence From Blogging!

ABSENCE for six (6) months!

Blogging is certainly NOT my thing... So this time, I'm going to make this post SO SIMPLE.

OK, let's start with the latest updates:
1) I'm in a relationship, his name is Adrian and I LOVE him so much;
2) My Sumative Examinations for Semester 2 is coming soon and I haven't study a bit;
3) I found a bottle of used lubricant and it states there that it should be used within 3 months after opening, and I know very clearly it's definitely opened for more than 3 months;
4) Adrian told me to get rid of the lubricant x.x
5) I've learned how to give injections, look for me if you can't trust clinic doctors or GH nurses and/or doctors (I promise I'll do it gently and with full of care) =p

I think that's all, there's just so little happening. So what's the point of blogging so often? XD

If you want to know more, maybe we could try meeting up one day and you could ask me one by one x.x

We'll see when will my next post be...

Personal Nursing Journal

Once again... No posts for about four months! LOL... Looks like I'm not really into blogging x.x

Anyway, I'm going through my last examinations for my first semester. Then, I'll start my postings in the hospital next week! Woohoo...

This is something I'd like to try, I'll be starting another blog (yes, another xp) posting only my nursing experience there. So it's going to be something like my personal nursing journal online.

The link to it is http://calvin-nursingjournal.blogspot.com, I really don't know if it'll work this time x.x

OK, that should be it for now.

When's the next post going to come in? I can't answer that too xp

I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore!

You Are An ESTJ

The Guardian You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker.Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them.You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done! In love, you tend to bring stability to relationships.You feel comfortable being in charge, and you enjoy being a provider. At work, you take charge. You thrive in structured environments and don't mind enforcing the rules.You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective. How you see yourself: Realistic, stable, and pragmatic When other people don't get you, they see you as: Rigid, bound to rules, and a bad listener

What's" Your Personality Type?

Is This So?

You Are An ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. In love, you are loyal and honest. If you commit yourself to someone, then you're fully committed. For you, love is something that happens naturally. And you don't need romantic gestures to feel loved. At work, you remember details well and are happy to take on any responsibility.You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer. How you see yourself: Decisive, stable, and dependable When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, conservative, and egotistical

What's" Your Personality Type?

I've Finally Got It!

I went to school earlier today to get my documents certified true copy, and of course to meet my dear Andrew, and also to give Mondo his birthday present. Yes, it's his birthday today.

After that, I went to Summit with Mondo to check on the watch I want, I just want to see if the watch still give me the urge to buy it. It definitely did! Next, the watch is on my wrist and RM199.00 cash in the salesgirl's hand.

It's a Seiko automatic watch, and it's on promotion, that's why it's only RM199.00. Even if it's not on promotion, I still doubt it's going to be an expensive watch. Anyway, it's the best I could afford on my OWN and I'm certainly proud about it.

This is the Seiko automatic watch I'm talking about =p

It's Official

I've just received my offer letter from Pantai Institute of Health Science & Nursing yesterday night after the countdown celebration at my auntie's house...

It's my first offer letter in my life! =p

I was so excited but I didn't jump because I was just too tired to, I swear I would've if it wasn't 2.45am and if I have been sleeping for the past 40 hours x.x

Yes, 2.45am was the time we reached home from my auntie's house...

Anyway, happy new year!